So 8th of December... it is

Soon i will finally be receiving the card that would read:

Qaynat

Weds

Ankit

On: 8Th Dec 08

Something that i hadn't really wanted, not even expected. And something that hadn't struck me till now. The other evening, 12Th Nov, (how can i ever forget that date now, kiney!!!) i called her and cried n cried n cried, right before the most beautiful moment of her life. I cried to the fact that, she and i might not be the same anymore, that she and i will not be able to attend each other's wedding, that she n i might just drift apart because our husbands might not see eye to eye, or just might not like our talking to each other.

I felt bad, that in spite of planning it for years, we will not be able to dance on each others weddings, we will not be able to stand at the entry gate and ask for sagan for entry, we will not be besides each other when we are being taken with all glitz and glamours and maximum footage to the center stage, we will not be there to hide our jeeja ji's juttis, we will not be there to negotiate ... We will not hug each other and cry ... The gist is that we will just not be there... JUST NOT BE THERE...

There at times when nothing else matters, its only the fact that we will not be a part of each others wedding album. Which is scary in its own self. I will never ever again be able to go and see Qaynat alone in Bangalore, both of us will have our share of add-on's.

Guess somewhere it is better, that the two of us are getting married almost at the same time.... Because we could have lost track due to one single and one married status being clubbed together. It is probably nice, that now that both of us will have husbands together, we might just be able to have some gala time with the four of us. All of it could be true. But my heart will somewhere miss the true bond we shared, that nobody else might actually be able to understand...